Maybe it is gone now–I don’t think so–but you are describing my first experience hand-installing nVidia drivers in SuSE way-back-when. Someone in the forums (SuSE’s) wrote a procedure that we all needed to follow, and it worked.
There was a moment of sheer terror, I’ll admit, because it was an ugh-known and a botched line meant no startx. No X at all. But it worked–magic!–and it felt like entry into a club.
When I first started using a computer I had a very difficult time. My only instrument was the IBM-DOS manual that came with the machine. Trying to understand anything in it was worse than learning a foreign language–from a text book with no other input, other than error message output. It was horrible, but I did learn how to format and re-install DOS the first day.
But I found a slim book, Learn How To Program, And Change The Way You Think and I picked it up. I didn’t really learn to program, other than batch files and Basic, but it did change the way I think. To the degree, anyway, that I could read and use the damn DOS manual and get something out of it.
The old 600-page SuSE manual, in the beautiful SuSE-green boxed edition was like a Christmas present.
EDIT: Anyway, @Aervec, just keep hacking away at it and one day it will all just click.